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I'm sober and I'm going to spill it

you kids haven't been broken by the f****** world yet, i wish you love and a happy life

but I assure you your kindness makes you a f****** mark to many people

to be the best man you can be and get shat upon ("SHAT" great word, use it) is the worst feeling in the world, but life isn't fair do not expect it to be

love is a fantasy, a romantic construct, and true love is rare, usually unconditional love from your family if you were lucky enough to be born into a good one. kids be especially aware of this, when they say that "you will understand one day," it is true- it is realizing THAT fact that has frustrated me most during the process of growing into a man

next, it's all b******* in the end do what makes you happy

sometimes faith in humanity can wane, right now my view is that I am not meant for better things apart from improving myself as a human being, alone. i still have faith because there are a few good people here and there

some unsolicited advice? want a girl? be a F****** douche a-h*** because apparently that's what they want or else be a nice, solid, sturdy man and end up a f****** doormat, yes i am being cynical but there is some truth in this

no I am not bitter, this is reality

are there any girls out there that want to be treated right and would in fact appreciate it?

nope, they are taken, and moreover likely taken for granted

I missed the boat by making wrong choices and learning my lessons too late

let me serve as an example to others

guys, if you find that very rare, good woman, HOLD ONTO HER, for she is priceless

I'm not perfect, but hear these words for they are true

to the few good women out there, GOD BLESS YOU, you are the face of God on earth

people are judgmental, f*** them and if your man is worth his salt he will know that it is what's on the INSIDE that counts

don't let ANYONE slight you for perceived imperfections, your heart is what counts

whatever you look like, whatever you feel like, wherever you came from, whatever issues you think you may have, a kind heart is rare and precious and if one takes advantage of it and can't recognize the value of a kind heart be strong enough to let them go

cliche is a pejorative term, but they are truisms, and in the end it is true that looks mean very little, it IS what is on the inside that counts

you mean nothing unless your heart is true

and I am meaningless unless I am a good man, and being a good man is where it's at, they are rare

I apologize but I am not embarrassed in any way, I do not usually open up, but I have friends here and I value you more than you know

What all started with me f****** around on the internet at work turned out pretty well. Birdie, Crystal, Anne, Jon, YOU Berry and yes even you TIAR you bastard have offered me more insight and laughter over the past few years than I could ever put a price on and that has made my life better, even if only a bit in the grand scheme of things. Much love to my cousin Aegeantyphoon. Placemats, I hope to make a new friend soon.

I demand funny/mocking responses, i expect nothing less from you all and I love you for it. And know I love you in a special way. It's the f****** internet for christ's sake, but that type of filter lets your personalities shine through unperverted by superficialities that aren't obvious in this type of medium. (I think I just made up some words.)

Thank you for letting me vent. Sometimes one needs to scream into outer space where only nebulae listen. Peace to all, and if anyone ever needs anything know that you can count on me. I am not ambitious, but I try to make the world a better place even if it's a small gesture.

-Demetrius (AKA HoC, backing you up until the end brothers and sisters)

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Permalink Reply by Aegeantyphoon on February 27, 2011 at 4:39pm

He is actually the best, in my book. Birdie your awesome. And I am not just saying that because he is my cousin. Much love to you D.

Birdmagon said:

I wasn't lying when I said he is one of the rare good men...I almost typed rear :)

placemats said:

Well, that pretty much f****** blew me away. You're the real McCoy, D. Awesome name, by the way.

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Permalink Reply by kilgoretrout2112 on February 27, 2011 at 9:03pm

Damn....that was AWESOME!!!

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Permalink Reply by THE NÄRD DOG on February 27, 2011 at 9:28pm

It was almost you wrote that directly to me. You seem like a really good person. :)

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Permalink Reply by hintofcoolness on February 28, 2011 at 11:09am

AH YEAH

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Permalink Reply by Michael Barrios on February 28, 2011 at 5:29pm

Wow. That legitimately hit me emotionally. Honestly, right now I feel like s***. Romantically speaking, anyway. I can't find anyone in this school full of douchebags (all whom are paired with nice girls). I feel pretty distant from my best friends, and they've been a******* to me recently. I feel like I want to leave to a new school.

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Permalink Reply by THE NÄRD DOG on February 28, 2011 at 6:55pm

What you said is similar to what I was trying to say. I couldn't find good enough words to adequately respond to such a well-written post.

Michael Barrios said:

Wow. That legitimately hit me emotionally. Honestly, right now I feel like s***. Romantically speaking, anyway. I can't find anyone in this school full of douchebags (all whom are paired with nice girls). I feel pretty distant from my best friends, and they've been a******* to me recently. I feel like I want to leave to a new school.

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Permalink Reply by surfwaxasia on February 28, 2011 at 7:14pm

I just filled that shot class you bought up with tears.

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Permalink Reply by placemats on March 17, 2011 at 6:05pm

Your options are increasing, D.

Brofessefef said:

Yeah, I'd totally fluck HoC too.

Cathy Sherman (Midly) said:

I feel this so much right now. I flew (never flown before, terrified) all the way across the country to get away and think. Partially because of some of the reasons listed above. I have been overlooked. HoC has been an amazing person to talk to about a lot of the b******* that goes on in one's life.

<3<3<3<3

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Permalink Reply by hintofcoolness on March 17, 2011 at 6:31pm

You're going to have to buy me dinner first you cheap flucking bastard.

Brofessefef said:

Yeah, I'd totally fluck HoC too.

Cathy Sherman (Midly) said:

I feel this so much right now. I flew (never flown before, terrified) all the way across the country to get away and think. Partially because of some of the reasons listed above. I have been overlooked. HoC has been an amazing person to talk to about a lot of the b******* that goes on in one's life.

<3<3<3<3